MinihorseBounce's Xanga

Monday, December 11, 2006

Mon, 11 Dec 2006 02:37:43 GMT

So...I think I'm going to go on a hiatus from Xangaing for a while. I seem to want to write on here when I'm emotional - and that is the worst time for me to be writing on here for the world to see. So I have a nice little journal by my bed that I'm going to be writing in for a while. I think that will help me get a handle on my thoughts and the decisions that I need to make.

Before I go however, I do want to say this....One Christmas Eve (Festival of Lights) finished today. I am completely exhausted. I can't remember when I have felt exaustion of the mind, body and spirit like this. But at the same time I am so grateful to have been a part of that program. It is an experience that I will remember for a long time. Having put everything I have into that performance for two weeks straight hasn't left me with much. I'm going to have to slowly find a way to recouperate in the midst of this extremely busy month. I guess that is the best way I can find to describe how I am feeling right now.

Well, blessings to you all...I will return sometime I'm sure. In the meantime, your prayers would be greatly appreciated!

Thank you!!

Wednesday, November 29, 2006

Wed, 29 Nov 2006 02:59:41 GMT

How amazing is it to be able to go for a jog and sit on my front porch with no jacket on in the last week of November? I am seriously loving this weather.

One Christmas Eve - Festival of Lights dress rehearsals are tomorrow and Thursday. Performances start on Friday. Wow. Yay for a busy holiday season!

There is some pretty major stuff that I have coming up to make decisions about. Its kind of scary - making those major decisions that will change your life and your future. There are some decisions that you can mix - take the options and come up with a solution involving parts of each. I wish this was one of them. Instead its pretty much one or the other - no middle ground. Time to be a grown up.

Thursday, November 09, 2006

Thu, 09 Nov 2006 22:54:59 GMT

Granholm is governor again....disappointing.

The weather has been absolutely gorgeous these past few days! I love it!

For some funny video watching, google Vintage 21 and look at the videos tab. Watch Jesus videos #1, 2, 3, and 4. Be prepared to laugh!

Friday, November 03, 2006

Fri, 03 Nov 2006 04:24:57 GMT

How is it that some people can be so oblivious to when they are insulting someone else? And why do I find myself constantly putting myself in situations where I am forced to put up with veiled insults and non-veiled lectures?
How frustrating.
I'm tired.
I'm going to bed.
I just had to voice my exasperated questions.

::sigh::

Tuesday, October 17, 2006

Tue, 17 Oct 2006 21:19:29 GMT

Two things:

1 - I have had enough of the male species. I'm done.

2 - Please pray for a couple of pretty major issues/decisions that I'm dealing with right now. Thanks!

Thats it...

Thursday, October 12, 2006

Thu, 12 Oct 2006 23:57:55 GMT

I'm sick...sad day

My boss told me I'm doing a good job at work. I really needed to hear that.

It appears I'm going to be going to Trans-Siberian Orchestra by myself this year. Double Sad day!

I'm tired....

Getting Involved and Being Responsible

Thu, 28 Sep 2006 01:41:14 GMT

I am one of the newest members of Calvary Church's choir! I'm really excited. I went to practice tonight and interviewed and auditioned and got fitted for my robe (yes...we wear robes, I felt like I was getting ready for graduation...except they are bright blue ) I decided that if I was going to keep going to Calvary, I wanted to get involved. Choir seemed like the logical first step and I think I'm going to really like it. I've missed singing in a choir.

Homecoming at Cornerstone is next week. I'm going to the Alumni Executive Business Luncheon. Weird.

My car is now completely in my name. I have a loan that I'm making the payments on and everything. The first vehicle I've ever fully owned. My vocabulary recently has had an increase of words such as budget, bills, loans, work, etc. Yay for responsibility.

I'm trying to keep myself busy. Busy-ness can be a good thing.

Who am I?

Sat, 16 Sep 2006 16:46:13 GMT

I've been doing a bit of soul searching lately trying to figure out really what makes me me...so as I eat my Cookie Crisp cereal, I'll share some of what I've figured out. Its not a comprehensive list, its not in any particular order, but its a start. Maybe my views of myself are completely different from what everyone else sees - let me know what you think. What else could be added to this list?

1) I love God and can't stand religion
       - This could be a blog post in itself, maybe it will be someday. I'm a little frustrated with Christianity as an institution.
2) I love variety
       - Hence the wide variety of movies, music, and books. Why have a fruit salad with four kinds of fruit when I can make one with eight? My job basically is requiring me to learn the functions of the entire Accounting department, not just one particular area.
3) I love to travel
       - I have dreams of going all over the US and the world. Mission trips, vacations, random trips just because - I love them all! I want to learn about other cultures and experience different places - not as a tourist, but as someone who is there to learn and experience.
4) I tend to be an independent person
       - I'm ok with going places by myself and doing things on my own. I'm not very good at asking for help.
5) My emotions run deep, but I have become very good at not showing them
       - I have a pretty good handle on my emotions; I don't cry in front of many people, I'm not the type to get angry, I basically work through things and get over them
6) I like for some things to be constant - my friends, my family, my faith
       - Consistency in some things makes me feel secure, which is important to me.
7) I am a long range planner
       - I tend to look at the big picture and I want to plan years in advance. I've learned to lighten up a bit and go with the flow more. And I've also learned that no matter how much I like to plan in advance, those plans rarely ever work the way I thought they would.
8) I have a small circle of close friends who are very important to me
       - I know a fair share of people, but there are not very many who I truly count as friends. I have a hard time adjusting to them leaving and once I've really invested in the friendship, I have a hard time letting it go.
9) I want to be involved
       - I love learning about what's around me. The Grand Rapids community has become important to me. I love working downtown and volunteering downtown, and really getting involved where I'm at. I'm working on getting involved at church and finding more ways to get involved downtown and learn how I can help the people in this area.
10) I tend to work better when under pressure
       - Pressure helps me to focus on what needs to be done. When I'm not busy I tend to procrastinate or just not do anything. I am the most productive when I have lots of things to do and deadlines that I need to meet. For example: the best semester of school for me was the one in which I had 19 credits and three jobs.

Thursday, August 24, 2006

Thu, 24 Aug 2006 01:21:17 GMT

**For those who happened to read the previous post, sorry about the downer. I was tired and probably not in the best frame of mind to try and post anything on a public forum. I'm good, life is good, all is good.**

For everyone else, read on...

Work is actually going really well. I think I'm going to like working at a law firm. They have been really nice to me and treated me very well. I'm learning a lot and hopefully I'll be able to remember all that I've learned when it comes time to use the knowledge again.

This week is going to be a stretch. A lot is going on, but I will be able to make it. Once I get through Friday, things should slow down a bit. I'll have to start studying for section 2 of the CPA of course, but it won't be quite as intensive until October.

Lost nights are fun.

How many V's can you put in your entry?

Wed, 02 Aug 2006 02:07:23 GMT

"Voila! In view, a humble vaudevillian veteran cast vicariously as both victim and villian by the vicissitudes of fate. This visage, no mere veneer of vanity is a vestige of the vox populi, now vacant, vanished. However, this valorous visitation of a bygone vexation stands vivified and has vowed to vanquish these venal and virulent vermin vanguarding vice and vouchsafing the violently vicious and voracious violation of volition. The only verdict is vengeance, a vendetta held as a votive not in vain, for the value and veracity of such shall one day vindicate the vigilant and the virtuous. Verily, this vichyssoise of verbiage veers most verbose. So let me simply add that it is my very good honor to meet you, and you may call me V."

-- V